I got the lawnmower to work! For some inscrutable reason, only one person in my house could get the lawnmower to start. This doesn't stop me from trying, because DANGIT, IT SHOULD WORK! And lo! Today it did, and thus, I mowed the morning glories.
A certain someone in my circle has just made their first pro sale, and that has me twitchy about my own short story output. I glared at my idea/snippet file until one of them turned into flash fiction. Poof! Now I feel better.
Heck, I felt better after mowing the lawn. Now I just need to fix my mom's Walmart hem, and I'll be on top of the world.
In other news, I put $25 in a loan at
Kiva, because when I feel poor, I donate money. (Though technically, I'm loaning, not donating. I don't think you can do this sort of thing, though, with any expectations. It's a donation, pure and simple.) I think there's a strange mix of forces at play when I do that. The alchemical idea of sowing gold to reap a golden harvest later, the image of the widow at the temple, being praised by Jesus for giving what few coins she had. Those are the selfish motivations, which really are irrational, except possibly on the deepest unconscious level. Virtuous motivations go without saying. There's a financial zone, I think, where I forget to give charity. Above a certain security, I think, "I have bonus money, what should I do with it!" and of course, part of that is to give. But there's also where I'm at right now, which, while not poor, is an anxious, insecure state. When I encounter opportunities to spend money, and that opportunity is a charity, I have to ask myself the question, Is, 'because I want to hoard my money in case I need it later (and go to World Fantasy!)' a reason to deny a bunch of industrious women in Bolivia the chance to improve their own lives?
And using that logic, I'm going to buy one of my friend Fenmere's
Universal Drawing Straps, a nifty doodad he's worked up. Check it out! He's a good guy, a great artist (you can get clipboards with his art on it!) and a hard worker. Not only can you go to Kiva and help out random people start businesses in random corners of the world, you can help someone you know (by two degrees of separation) start a business.